Since i came back to church and made a vow to not fall back ever again i have gone through alot of pain,fear,confusion and much learning. I had a heart attacksept 1st and developed panic attack. The fear that comes with panic attacks also raised the B/P to stroke levels. I kept praying and studying and rebuke the devil. I am doing much better now. I still have battles but keep praying and looking to God for my strength. As a child is disiplined so am i and being correct by out father is never pleasant. But i made my vow and Got is ever with me to help me over the mountains i face. i have always been a very independant person so to get me in line i have to face strong correction by the Father. I am like a mule that you have to hit in the head with a 2 x 4 to get his attention. I wil not give up.